I'll be Looking up

Peace be upon those who come to my blog,
It has been awhile since I posted anything, I apologise for that, had some emotional issues, I think it's resolved, I hope it has.
Anyway, here a little rambling I'd like to share: (If anyone is checking my blog in the 1st place)

I'll be looking up,
from where I stand,
though it's hot,
I'll be looking up,
to see the smiles,
that I can't have,
I'll be looking up,
friends & family in white,
in rags I am in,
I'll be looking up,
as you sing & dance,
while I'm battered & beaten,
I'll be looking up,
Drinks of wine & Honey,
i'm served oil & pain,
I'll be looking up,
where a joyous tune is played,
I hear my own screams,
I'll be looking up,
I don't envy you,
I don't ask of pity,
I'll be looking up,
I am here for my choices & deeds,
I'll be looking up, I'll still be looking up.

by Mohammad Jamaluddin